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One Man’s Journey Through Sex Addiction Pt.1

Thursday, April 30, 2009

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One Man’s Journey Through Sex Addiction Pt.1

It's midnight and just like many other nights each week, I found myself in the home office in front of my computer again. All of my good intentions, the ones saturated with denial and rationalization, are to work on my dissertation. Soon my real intentions take over and a couple of clicks later the screen of boring black and white text changes to bright colors of pornography. I am lost now in the world that is so familiar to me. It's a world of fantasy and escape. I shut out all the pain and thoughts and feelings of my life. I push aside any sense of responsibility to do something more productive. I lose track of time as I travel deeper into my world of fantasy and escape. Suddenly I am jarred back to reality with that dreadful sound of my wife's voice. "What are you doing?" I have been caught again. My whole being is filled with shame and guilt. There are no words. I was stuck in silence. There was nothing I could say to make it better now. I clicked off the computer. She demanded to see what I was looking at. I just refused. She gives up and goes back to bed. This is a true life story about the journey of a sex addict. Please read it, it could be you.

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